HELP!!! Im in love with my cousin.. now that she knows she keeps me at arms length.. n im planning my suicide?

Alright, look, there is no need to kill yourself because your cousin doesn't love you like you love her. Right now, it's probably best ya'll don't hang out right now. Do you have other good friends? That are guys? It would probably be best to have a guys night out, and make sure it's someone you can trust! Just go get wasted and have fun! :) Eventually it should blow over. Of course you will ALWAYS have feelings for her, same with every love you are going to get in your life, but she is your cousin and also your best friend, If ya'll were to "be together" would you really be willing to risk EVERYTHING just to be with her?!?